The No-Name Blog

ranting...

2007-04-22T09:11:00.000-05:00

salooooooooooooooom (The Irani way..hehe)

Well well well..It's been long since I've last written a blog entry. Nothing is "thrilling" enough to write about to be honest...other than my dreadful same every-day routine. I don't even think anyone is bothered enough to view my blog..why? cuz no one knows about it :D LOL excepet a few people. And the fact that I blab on a lot. So no point.

Anyway, so speaking of "Iran", I just watched "Children of Heaven" the other day on google video. One of the most tear-jerking, gentle, warm hearted movies I've ever seen. Quite original; that is in comparison to the American ones I've seen in here. Ali and Zahra were so caring that I wished I had such a good two-brothers like him. He sacrificed so much and had to go through such hardships just to get a new shoe for his sister. I admire him and admire Zahra's patience and unspeakable innocence. God bless such children. Unlike the ones here, so arrogant and demanding, if you don't get the thing they want, they'd yell to death until you get it for them. This film was one of a gem.

So I was struggling to choose a topic for my ISU (indpendant study unit) paper that I have to write almost every year. I finally settled on "Racial Profiling". I think that's a good topic since it relates to how we, the minorities, face racial discrimination almost on an every-day basis. Well, not exactly everyday, but quite often. I mean, those countries praise themselves for having such a colourful diverse multiculturalism, and on the other hand, the country men themselves are stamped by prejudicial and delicate discriminatory actions.

There's this quote I am gonna use from Baba Ali (The ummah films brother) when he said in one of his videos, "If you thought black while driving was bad, try Muslim while flying" LOL. And I am gonna elaborate on that ofcourse. I might add this joke at the end or something [ in a formal manner that is]. There was this dog that was about to pounce on this poor little girl and attack her. Fortunately, there was this Lebanese dude who saw the girl, he jumped in and killed the dog to save her life. From thereon, people started praising this life-saver and thanked him for his help to save the little girl. Once asked about nationality, the next day, the headlines in the newspaper read: " A terrorist kills a dog". LOL I just noticed it isn't related to racial profiling...well kind of..I dunno. We'll see. But yes, it is hilarious, in my opinion that is.

akhhhhhhh..it's HOT! The whether here had been such a roller coaster. In January, it was like spring. April, it was damn freezing, and now we're nearing the end of this month, and it's roastingly hot. I don't get itttt. Blame Global Warming. We don't realize the consequence of our actions until it actually starts harming us. :/

ok..got to go
salaams

Cheese Croissants!!

2007-01-13T16:27:00.000-06:00

Salaaaamu alaikum

Made those a couple of days ago...thought I'd share the recipe..hehe alongside the pictures.

Ingredients:
-3 cups of flour
-1/2 cup of milk
-1/2 cup of water to mix with a tablespoon of instant yeast
-4 tablespoons oil or butter if prefered
-pinch of salt
-1 tablespoon baking powder

Filling:
- cream cheese Now mix all the ingredients together, and remember to stir the yeast well into the water prior to blending it into the mixture. Stir until making a slightly sticky dough. Make it into one big lump.

Cover the dough and let it rest for about 30 minutes.

Later on: Now knead the dough and form a small ball,
(sorry about the messiness; I was in a miserable hurry >< ) Make sure you have some flour underneath, otherwise it'll stick to whatever board you're using. Same goes for the rolling pin. Use the rolling pin to spread them into rectangles, then further cut them into triangles like shown.

Then fill in with cheese/spinach/meat/etc whatever you like. I personally like cheese . Finally, smear with egg yolk and spread some sesame on top, and bake into oven for no more than 10 minutes.

et voila!haha..I burned some of them *blush* But they taste good ;)

wassalam

Condolences...

2006-10-13T15:58:00.000-05:00

تهدمت والله أركان الهدى

Ya ALI!!!

Ya Rubby....

2006-09-22T16:55:00.000-05:00

Sick, tired, burning watery eyes, runny nose, cold, painful headache....O Season Change..tsk tsk tsk...The other day (prior to my sickness) in my English class, the sound of the runny noses of half of my class was echoing throughout the whole period (whoop-whoop-whoop--------whoop- if that sounds like it). Now it's my turn. I could take anything, absolutely ANYTHING, but no to cold. You can't concentrate in class, you can't talk (if you really want people to hear how you sound then go ahead; totally someone else!) can't even write or read in peace! Your runny nose is just going wild thru these moments! Oh boy. What a day. You simply cannot do a single thing. Couldn't take this day off-you are in a MISERABLE state if you even miss one day of this grade; weekend ahead and insh'Allah I'll get better. *goes back to sucking those soups and ancestral remedies*

oh boy, last year insh'Allah! can't wait to get over with this year! *just started lol*
Chemistry oh God....you can never have chemistry with calculus...a no no. On top of it, this calculus class was supposed to be a REGULAR one, not an AP (Advanced placement-a bit more advanced than the regular one) class!! A bunch of other kids were like "whoaa We CHOSE regular!why on earth were we placed here!!", so we went to the Guidance Councellor..he said" oh no problemo, zis is a meexed class, regular and AP". Apparently, there weren't enough people for the AP class- appx 10 people, so Mash'Allah, bright clever teachers decided to mix regular and AP people altogether. It isn't tough (well it's going to be in the next few chap's *dry*), thing is, when you've got chemistry, English, calculus AND psychology, you ARE really gonna turn into a psycho!

Now my current problem is "the struggle with the shyness disease" . It hasn't just recently struck me-it's been going on for years, but this year is a bit more critical. How do I overcome it? I have no idea. In psycho. class, we discuss countless of things more than we write; as a matter of fact, when do we ever write? :huh: It's plain discussions. God....I love discussions so long I don't get involved (which is something I really despise about myself) and it's like that's the way to get marks!!!UGHH...plus a lot of these topics sometimes touch Islam/culture/marriage issues/etc and I really want to stand up for myself and talk like other people!!!But I can't!!!!I AM tooooo SHYYY and quiet!!! UFFFFFFF...shy from what? I have absolutely no clue. It's been driving me crazyyy lately. As my mother jokes, " the girl talks to her shadow" :( which is something not nice to say about her darling daughter. There was this convo going on in psycho. class the other day, and the teacher was telling us about his experience with one of the "devoted muslim"families while staying in Egypt, and the incident goes like this:

Teacher admiring the big huge vase sitting in the living room...
Teacher to the lady of the house: ohh this is once amazing vase you've got.
Lady: ohhh thank you :) you can take it!!! really!!!take it back home with you.
Teacher :huh: : no really...thanks, but I can't take it home with me.
Lady: noooooo you have to take it!!!
Teacher (embarrased): no really...I was just complimenting it..
Lady: oh come onnnnn...you have to show it to your wife, family,etc...you have to take it.

*cross eyes*
and it just went on and on and on. The poor guy was like "WTW" is this something like common amongst arabs/muslims that "once you admire something, you'll have to take it!" ??and the whole class was like "whaaaa" and me stupid wanted to say: oh this is just a matter of being generous..nothing really hehe" ufff min 3adat il 3arab...

But I didn't.

I laughed with them..ugh. There were some other incidents too...one I actually commented on, when he was "again" admiring the baby and how cute he was, the lady was like "ohhh this is bad...bla bla bla" I am like "huh" then I actually said that this is just some superstitious stuff, evil eye and whatnot...don't take it seriously. So yeah, he's like I know....then continued laughing. Man, what is wrong with those people!!!!3urbaaaan!!What in the world is wrong with complimenting a baby? It's actually nice to say that this baby is cute and adorable and all that. Maybe it's not the same with the Egyptians. huh I dont get those people really. Typical arabs.

Anyway, I am trying hard...evaluating myself daily...I hope I will get over it one day.

gotta prepare Iftar..BTW, RAMADAAAANNNNNNN MUBARAAAAAAAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
probably this sunday insh'Allah. May we get closer to Allah and may He accept all our deeds in this Holy Month insh'Allah.

until then, take care!!!

Munajaat Al-Sha'baniyyah

2006-09-01T02:29:00.000-05:00

The most beautiful and touching munajat you could've ever heard of. Stunning.
Recieved it via email from AIM:

Click here for t he audio

My Lord, bestow Your blessings on Muhammad and his descendants; respond to my prayer when I pray to You; listen to my call when I call You; and turn to me when I make my submission to You in confidence. I have come running to You and am standing before You imploring You in humility and hoping to get the reward You have for me. You know what is in my heart, and You are aware of what I need. You know my mind and are not unaware of my future and of my present, of what I want to begin my speech with; of the request I would utter, and of the hopes I have in regard to my ultimate lot.

My Lord, whatever You have destined for me up to tbe end of my life, whether concerning the open aspect of my life or the hidden aspect of it, is bound to come. What is to my advantage and what is to my disadvantage - all my losses and gains are in Your hand, not in the hand of anybody else.

My Lord, if You deprive me, who else will provide me; and if You let me down, who else will help me?

My Lord, I seek Your protection from Your anger and from earning Your displeasure. If I am not fit for gaining Your Mercy, You are certainly fit to be generous to me by virtue of Your Magnanimity.

My Lord, I see as if I am standing before You protected by my trust in You. You said what befitted You and covered me with Your forgiveness.

My Lord, if You forgive me, then who is more suited than You to do that? If the time of my death has come near and my deeds have not still brought me close to You, I make this confession of my sins a means of approaching You.

I have been unjust to my soul for I have not looked after it. It will certainly be doomed if You do not forgive it.

My Lord, You have always been kind to me during my life time. Therefore do not cut off Your favour from me at the time of my death.

My Lord, how can lose the hope of Your looking kindly, in me after my death, when you have always been good to me during my life.

My Lord, in my case do what befits You and bestow Your favour on me - a sinner enwrapped in his ignorance.

My Lord, You have concealed many of my sins in this world. I am in a greater need of their being conceded in the next. As You have not revealed my sins even to any of Your pious bondmen, do not expose me on the Day of Resurrection before everybody.

My Lord, Your generosity has expanded my aspiration, and Your forgiveness is superior to my deeds. Therefore gladden my heart by allowing me to meet You on the day You administer justice to Your bondmen.

My Lord, my apology to You is the apology of him who cannot afford his apology being not accepted. Therefore accept my apology, You the Most Magnanimous of those to whom the evildoers tender their apology.

My Lord, do not turn down my request; do not foil my desire; and do not cut off my hope and expectation of You.
My Lord, if You had wanted to disgrace me, You would not have guided me; and if You had wanted to expose my faults and vices, You would not have kept me safe and sound.

My Lord, I do not think that You will turn down my request for that in asking You for which I have spent my whole life.

My Lord, all praise is due to You, always and forever, growing not diminishing, as You like and please.

My Lord, if You condemn me for my crimes, I will cling to Your forgiveness, and if You hold me for my sins, I will cling to Your granting pardon. If You haul me into the hell, I will tell its inmates that I love You.

My Lord, if my deeds are too small in relation to how I should obey You, my aspirations are high enough as compared to what I should expect of You.

My Lord, how can I go away from You unsuccessful and disappointed, when I had a high hope that You will be kind enough to send me away enjoying safety and deliverance.

My Lord, I have wasted my life committing the crime of forgetting You and played havoc with my youth, intoxicated with keeping myself away from You.

My Lord, I did not wake up when I was under a delusion about You and was inclined to earn Your displeasure.

My Lord, I am Your bondman, son of Your bondman. I am standing before You, trying to use Your own magnanimity as a means of approaching You.

My Lord, I am a bondman of Yours, I want to rid myself of the sins I used to commit in Your presence because I lacked the sense of feeling ashamed that You were looking at me. I request You to forgive me, because forgiveness is a characteristic of Your Kindness.

My Lord, I was not strong enough to move away from Your disobedience, except when You awakened me to Your love. I was exactly as You wanted me to be. I am thankful to You for introducing me to Your Kindness and purging my heart of the impurities of being inattentive to You.

My Lord, look upon me as the person whom You called and he responded to You, whom You helped by using his ser-vices, and he obeyed You. You Near One, Who is not far from one who is away from You. You Munificent, Who does not withhold His reward from one who hopes for it.

My Lord, provide me with a heart, the passion of which may bring it near You, with a tongue the truth of which may be submitted to You, and with a vision the nature of which may bring it close to You.
My Lord, whoever gets acquainted with You, is not un-known; whoever takes shelter under You, is not disappointed; and one to whom You turn, is not a slave. One who follows Your path is enlightened; and one who takes refuge in You, is saved.

My Lord, I have taken refuge in You. Therefore do not disappoint me of Your Mercy and do not keep me secluded from Your Kindness.

My Lord, place me among Your friends in the position of one who hopes for an increase in Your love.

My Lord, inspire me with a passionate love of remembering You so that I may keep on remembering You, and by Your Holy Name and Pure Position cherish my cheerful determination into a success.

My Lord, I invoke You to admit me to the place reserved for those who obey You, and to attach me to the nice abode of those who enjoy Your good pleasure. . . I can neither defend myself nor do I control what is advantageous for me.

My Lord, I am Your powerless sinning slave and Your repentant bondman. So do not make me one of those from whom You turn away Your face, and whom his negligence has secluded from Your forgiveness.

My Lord, grant me complete severance of my relations with everything else and total submission to You. Enlighten the eyes of our hearts with the light of their looking at You to the extent that they penetrate the veils of light and reach the Source of Grandeur, and let our souls get suspended by the glory of Your sanctity.

My Lord, make me one of those whom You call and they respond; when You look at and they are thunderstruck by Your majesty. You whisper to them secretly and they work for You openly.

My Lord, I have not allowed my pessimistic despair to overcome my good opinion about You, nor did I ever lose my hope of Your benevolence.

My Lord, if my errors have degraded me with You, You may forgive me in view of my unqualified reliance on You.

My Lord, if my sins have made me unfit to receive Your tender affection, my firm belief has reminded me of Your Compassion.

My Lord, if my disregard for preparations to meet You has put me to sleep, my knowledge of Your kind bounties has awakened me.

My Lord, if Your severe punishment calls me to Hell, the abundance of Your reward invites me to Paradise.

My Lord, I ask You and pray to You earnestly, I desire and request You to show Your favour to Muhammad and his descendants, make me one of those who always remember You and never violate the pledge they make to You, who do not fail to show You their gratitude and do not take Your orders lightly.

My Lord, let me be attached to the Light of Your Majestic Glory, so that I may know You alone, be away from others, and have a heart fearful of You and an eye watchful of You. May Allah's blessing and peace be on Muhammad and those of his descendants who are pure.

Duaas please!!!

2006-08-25T23:21:00.000-05:00

Assalamu alaikum to all those reading my dull and boring entries; Ins'Allah you're all doing super good.

I am SOOOOOO exhausted. I can't even lift my legs no more. My eyes are almost going to pop out of their sockets. My hands are about to fall off as well. ya3ni we had to make this pre-school shopping today..tsk tsk tsk..I don't mind shopping at all, but TODAY???!!!And tomoryrow is my biggest day ever!!! Why? Well, because I am going to meet one of my bestest and closest friends on SC TOMORROW SATURDAY!!! I am sooooooooo nervous, thrilled, confused, super happy, preplexed ahhhhh...I am not going to make this long, because I've got to finish my packing and get ready to wake up early tomorrow morning. I am going all ALONE *tears* by the train/metro for appx five hours and then I'll be meeting her there in the subway station insh'Allah. I CAN"T wait Ya Rubby. The first time I met her OMG. It was such a hilarious scene and I mean it. It lasted for like 5-10 minutes, and I was going crazyyy I swear...loool..I'll talk about this later. She's invited me a couple of times early this July for her wedding party and all..but I couldn't go unfortunately :( . Now this one is going to be a small party for the girls only and I'll get to see her as much as I want *yay going crazy* AHHHH. I can't wait. Btw, I'll be staying for one night there and coming back sunday night INSHA'ALLAH.

All I want from you guys is to make lottts of duaas for me *blush* as I am easily getting used to being lost. What if I don't get off at the right station? What if I don't see her in the station? What if I fainted from emotions overwhelming me? *tears* Pleaseee..ya Allah...make this journey run smoothly and at ease and may there not be a dopey person sitting beside me on the train ya Rub.

OMG...12:49 a.m I better hurry up!!!

I will update this as soon as I come baaaaack insh'Allah.
keep me in your duaas please :(
Wassalam
p.s this banner works on I.E browser but not firefox :( oh well.

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UPDATE:

Where do I start? I wanna go through it all over again :cry: only if I can rewind the tape :( . It was the most fANtAstIc night I've ever lived through. We kept on hugging each other every second and the other *blush* lol.

So as I mentioned earlier, we've met one time before, as it was at the hussayniyah in her town but it was tooooooo quick. ya3ni we talked for like 5-10 min's and then I said I have to go since my father and uncle were waiting me down stairs. Though it was crazy I swear. I am like "OMG ...OMG" " Is this really A.H before me or who" " OMG why are those people staring at me" Not to mention the number of colours my face kept changing to. Red..yellow..green..normal...red again LOL. I was too shy and so excited simultaneously :$ .

Early this summer,the girl invited me a couple of times to her wedding party and a few other girls get-togetheres but I couldn't make it unfortunately. After a couple of weeks, when the girl does her first visit to her parents' house, they do a small party too. I couldn't resist not going this time. ya3ni we really had to meet. We were desperate to see each other again lol. Alhamdullilah I was able enough to go on the train all the way to there all by my self. My first time travelling alone :'(. My father kept checking on me every second and the other literally, lol. It was def. a loong journey, but Alhamdullilah I made it there safe and sound. Luckily I got the window seat, and then there was this chinese girl sitting beside me, then she disappeared somewhere else. I got to own the two seats for myself hehe.

After my arrival, her father picked us up from the station and we were talking non-stop all the way to the hairdresser. She's such a sweet sis. I miss her already :(. So we stayed for a couple of hours, then we went to her house afterwards. Her mother was such a nice khala, so sweet and welcoming (keeping in mind that I am her friend whom she's met on the hussayniyah rofl). We ate then got dressed, and made ready the anasheed and mawaleed for the party. She looked so charming Masha'Allah. The tears kept flowing by every now and then.

So as usual, the party was scheduled at 6 but we arabs have this tendency of coming late to such occassions. some came at 8, others at 9..it was crazyyy lol. I told her next time, make it at 4 and they'll be here at 6. It always works that way, especially with my mother. tsk tsk tsk. Nevertheless, it was soooo much fun wallah..we had a blast. There were a lot of Lebanese and they did their "dabka" too. hehe. I was the camera man video taping, and taking numerous pix of alll different angles. I couldn't help myself but drop a few other tears too. Just seeing her smiling is a lot for me. So as the 7aflah came to an end, the girl, her mother and her sis were begging me to stay overnight and sleep at their house, but I just couldn't. My uncle, who lives there, was like you come all the way here and not even drop at our house...no way. I couldn't postpone my date of return either, as it was scheduled to be right the next day, so I just had to go to ammo's house and spend the night there. We didn't get enough to see each other :( butttt Alhamdullilah atleast I GOT to see her. I go all the way back home and I have forgotten my book, my toothbrush, my tooth paste, my ring..I broke my purse's zipper..loool all that in one night. I wonder how I would do in a one-month trip lol.

It was an amazing trip. I loved it. I loved it. I loved it.

What an awesome day to spend my b-day on. I didn't tell her that it was my b-day today (past Saturday) muhahahahahaha. But it was all good Alhamdullilah.

ahhhhhhhhh...now I am relieved....Thanks all for your duaas :).

w000t!!

2006-08-19T17:04:00.000-05:00

If a train is approaching or the signal lights near the track are flashing, you must stop no closer than:
1) 5 m from the nearest rail
2) 10 m from the nearest rail
3) 15 m from the nearest rail
4) 20 m from the nearest rail

A driver convicted of failing to stop for the school bus when required can be fined...
1) $ 50 to $100 and lose 3 demerit points for first offense
2) $400 to $2000 and lose 6 demerit points for the first offense.
3) $90 and lose 2 demerit points for first offense.
4) $75 and lose 4 demerit points for first offense.

I PASSED!!!! I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!! woohoo :D

Pheww..A load on my shoulders. Alhamdullilah I am done with it. Got 18/20 on the rules section and 19/20 on the signs part. Endless days and nights of cut-off studying for this damn test...finally done it and got over with it.

oh and btw, that's just the written/theoretical test; the practical one will be done 20 years from now :P j/k. Sooner than that.

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Ok so yeah as you may have noticed already, my blog has gone a li'l "weird". I got tired and bored from my old template. I like to change. But the problem is I don't know where the banner is :'( . It's B E A U T I F U L . Click on the pic below for a clearer view:
The background is lighter though...sooo, this will be just a temporary one; as I will give it sometime to "adjust" itself if it needs to. LOL. I don't think that'll work, but we got nothing to lose.

Anyway, nothing lately happening much...more than a friend of mine got married those two recent months (including my cousin). Those must be the "matrimonial" months of the year. Guests coming in..guests coming out. ah..I am also "still" having this dialogue with the sunni friend of mine via email. And to be honest, we have not yet moved on to any other topic save the beginning part and ever since we got into "intercession" we never got out of it. Though, the topic is branching off somewhat... But it's really getting frustrating.

worship..worship..bidaaa bidaa...shirk...*rolllll eyes* I am fed up with it honestly. I think all sunnis are like my friend. Salafi influenced. I feel so sorry for them. I mean not even logic works with them!!!LOGIC and reasoning ya Allah!! How on earth can a "fallible" human being who is prone to making mistakes be promised paradise? Can the mind even comprehend that? (concerning the hadith with the promised Ten) That's just one example out of a million other..akhhhhhh...

May Allah guide her on this Umrah journey she's experiencing for the first time, and may Allah grant us the opportunity to visit this majestic sight someday insh'Allah.

Ummah Films

2006-07-25T12:50:00.000-05:00

They're quite hilarious, but good reminders for us muslims. I believe the brother (Ali) is Iranian but he's somehow a sunni? or actually a convert but to sunnism...umm..Anyway, he's doing an excellent job with his videos..They're being uploaded every Friday. Here's the first 8; they're out of 10 I think.

Video Blog #1: Funny Thing During Jummah (Pilot)
http://youtube.com/watch?v=3o6kpCLDMVg&search=ummah

Video Blog #2: Looking for a spouse online
http://youtube.com/watch?v=hgRFVDc7z48&search=ummah
^^I don't think we should be doing this in the first place, nevertheless, quite funny.

Video Blog#3: $25,000 Muslim Weddings!!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=rH2nNt1s5pk&search=ummah

Video Blog #4: Muslim while flying
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-nolNcJ1G7w&search=ummah%20video%20%23%204

Video Blog # 5 : Muslim Characters at Work
http://youtube.com/watch?v=EN348SxeayA&search=ummah

Video Blog #6: Distractions During Salat (Prayer)
http://youtube.com/watch?v=MTwh6p1kyRQ&search=ummah

Video Blog #7: Seasonal Muslims
http://youtube.com/watch?v=K9CxtZpDrXQ&search=ummah

Video Blog #8 - Parental Advisory - Culture vs Islam
http://youtube.com/watch?v=GT3ol-iuCGU&search=ummah
^^So true.

Update

2006-07-24T10:19:00.000-05:00

Salamu alaikum everyone..
Ok I just realized that my nick doesn't make sense. It actually does, but the "noor" part is confusing. Anyway, it basically means that I am/ we are all awaiting the "noor"/light of the Hujja of Allah the Lord of the sun and the skies. We are awaiting him to free this world from the disastorous chaos that has hit every and each spot of this universe. From tornadoes, hurricanes, earthquakes, to corrupt devastations and endless massacres happening to Shi'at Ahlulbayt (AS) around the world... O Mahdi , where are you?

Earth to peace? Anyone calls? Yet we see another "battle" slamming this earth... tens of thoustands of INNOCENT civilians die...mothers , infants and elders..what's their fault? Infrastructure just began rolling out after being demolished prior to the withdrawl of the Zionists from the lands of Lebanon. And now you see they've turned into complete rubble. Was it worth it really?

The Canadian-Lebanese evacuees who are still being processed in Beirut (some have already arrived) are dreadfully frustrated at the Canadian preparations for the evacuation...there was absolutely no one to atleast assist them or even tell them what was going on while staying in Beirut.."We were like sheeps who have had no idea whatsoever to what was going on..where we were going...when.." As one of the evacuees said.

I don't blame the Canadian officials..because this IS a war zone..They were doing their best. It wasn't just happening with the canadian evacuees only..several other countires (Australia was one of them I think? ) have had the same kind of process.

Where's this going honestly?

May Allah's wrath be upon the oppressors and curse be upon the Zionists for causing all the havoc the world is suffering form.

Anyway, lately I haven't been doing much...No job, no volunteer positions, nothing. I handed in my resume/CV to several jobs, nothing is heard. I went to the hospital the other day, and the lady working there gave me somewhat of a stern look and said that there're no positions whatsoever until the start of September.
THEN WHY ON EARTH ARE YOU OPEN FOR? couldn't you just close your door for the summer? <_<>
I need to get my G1 thoguh!!! this is the written part for Level 1 of driving test..so basically I have to study all the rules and regulations of the road and all that...If there's anythign I hate in this world, it'd be driving. But my parents are forcing me to go and get atleast the first level done..*sigh* yalla we might change our mind later on.

So I am left between my books and the net. I've completed a few in the past few days...but still got lots to go :( .I want to devour them all. . Believe it or not, but I just finished "Then I was Guided" .I've been longing to read this book like centuries ago :P but now Alhamdullilah as soon as I had my hands on it, I couldn't put it down and finished it right the next day. It was A M A Z I N G. simply that. But "Peshawar Nights" was out of stockkkk :'((((( ...

Allow me to also ponder a lil more about the world of books and what I want to get ..."The Alchemist" , "Catch-22" , "My life" by Bill Clinton, "The Prophet" by Khalil Gibran, and ofcourse "Da Vinci Code"!!LOL yes I haven't read that yet!!! ok I shall stop now...This is going boring :P

So the day before ysterday (i.e Saturday) a few girls from our previous MSA (muslim student association) planned to go to Wonderland! We were supposed to be 20+ sisters attending but as usual, we ended up with 8 sisters going. Nevertheless, it was AWESOME. Esp. that roller coaster where you had to stand on your own feet!I am not even exaggerating..You ride on it while you're standing, going up and down, left and right. Then we rode on those water rides and we were completely soaking in water ..like totally!!!I have been on these rides before, but it's much more fun with your friends!! We rode like on the most terrifying dangerous rides ever invented...it was fun though :).

Anyhow..

ya Allah farrij 3an kullil il Mo'mineen wal Mo'minaat be7aq Muhaamad wa A'lii Muhammad. *sigh*

Fatima City

2006-07-03T10:33:00.000-05:00

I am so baffled ya Ilahy...I am gonna go nuts if I don't find out soon..read on to see what happened.. I think this is going to be the longest post in this blog..

Just yesterday morning (Saturday), as I was reading through the arabic newspaper (we recieve this every weekened) I was held at a complete astonishment when I read that there's a city in "Portugal" called "The City of Fatima" or "Fatima city". This place is actually some sort of a pilgrimage site where flockings of portugese go there to seek intercession and prayers from Lady Fatima Al Zahra (AS). The more exciting thing about it is the story itself, of how the city's name got derived ,etc. In brief, what was written in the papers is that..there were those three li'l shepherds (two girls and one boy-see pic above) who have met this great Lady named "Fatima". They also described her with the name of Lady of masba7a/rosary beads...and added that she was the daughter of Prophet of Islam. In the year of 1916, and that was prior to the year of meeting of Fatima (AS)-1917 that is, they met an Angel who have told them some words repeatedly for three successive times(came two times during the summer and once during autumn) .. somewhere along these line " Don't be afraid as I am the Angel of Peace..O Allah, I believe, I adore, I hope, and I love Thee! I beg pardon of Thee for those who do not believe, do not adore, do not hope and do not love Thee!"and each time he comes, they had to sacrifice something (as in a sheep/goat/etc) and pray and repent for the sinnners..etc etc. That was all a preparation for them to meet Fatima (AS). On May 13th, 1917 ..and in 2 strikes of beam lights , appeared on an olive tree,a Seyyeda whose noor is brighter than the sun..This Lady was called "Fatima" (Salawat 3ala Muhammad wa A'li Muhammad).
Fatima (AS) said: don't be scared....I don't want to scare you.
The children : who are you?!
Fatima (AS): I am Fatima, the daughter of the Prophet( meaning prophet Muhammad SAW).
The children: where did you come from??
Fatima (AS): from Heaven.
THe children: what do you want from us?
Fatima (AS): I came here to ask you to come next time as well to this same place so that I could tell you what exactly I want from you.

And so this Lady of misba7a came everymonth following the month of May, up until October. (Dunno what Lady Fatima (AS) actually told them) ...Then the last meeting approached and that's when the miracle had happened. Infront of appx. 70,000 people watching, the Lady of misba7a rotated the sun in the liver of the sky...then stopped it, then rotated it again and once again stopped it, until people were thinking that the sky is gonna fall over them...Then She (AS) returned the sun to where it was, warm and illuminating. From thereon, it became a sacred site for pilgrims (CATHOLIC ones) to come and request their needs from the Lady of misba7a Fatima Al Zahra (AS).

INTERESTING ISN'T IT?????? Well "I" I haven't heard of it before...so yeah you can tell why I am so excited.

BUT, we're not even through the main issue here...That was all some introductory stuff :P
So I went on google to check on the English stuff and see how valid it is (ofcourse it was valid/atleast I thought so, but was thirsty for more info ..pictures, etc. Guess what I found. They identified this Lady as Virgin Mary (AS). :cry:

How did the name of the city got derived?

Ironically, one of the most famous Christian towns in the world has a popular Muslim name - Fatima was the name of the daughter of Mohammed, the prophet of Islam. The town of Fatima is named after a Moorish girl who lived in Ourem, 10km (6 miles) northeast of Fatima, who fell in love with a Christian knight and converted.
Source: http://www.golisbon.com/portugal/cities/fatima.html

and this was not only on this website...many others confirmed it too.

:cry:
Why is this? What's true? Which one should I believe in...I am completely lost in despair now...I really need to find out soon...Last night I was going wild on google...until I gave up and headed to sleep...I just wanted one single site that confirmed what was written on the paper...Could they be wrong? but no..my heart says otherwise...I think "they" made all these deceptions to take the people away from knowing the greatness of the noble daughter of the Holy Prophet Muhammad (SAW). But I can't say this for sure...I have to ask and investigate...

*sigh*
p.s Some websites that are somewhat similar to what I read in the paper:
http://www.portugal.com/fatima/prophecies/prophecies.asp
http://www.di-ve.com/dive/portal/portal.jhtml?id=224516&pid=93

On the other hand, Brazil is knocked out of the WC. just terrific...*sigh*
It was too soon ya Rubby...yeah but they sucked during this last match...

well better luck next WC...oh well...

I am out...

wassalam

hmmmm...

2006-06-22T18:57:00.000-05:00

What concerns me those few days...hmmmmm..
I wanna get some volunteer hours somewhere...Last summer I volunteered at the Cnd. Blood Donation services..dunno if I want to join agian. Would love to do a few chores around a real hospital though! We'll see.
A few books in mind to read:
-Fadak in History
-Al Murajaat
-Peshawar Nights
-Greater Sins
-Kitab Al Irshad
and finish off "The Choice" by Ahmad Deedat
LOL I don't even know if I am gonna finish reading 1/4 of them...but I really wanna get them this summer.Insh'Allah.
and I REALLY REALLY recommend reading "THe Kite Runner" A well though-out, stunning..amazingly written book...Throughout the last chapter, I was sobbing badly...So heartbreaking and just amazing..

anddd.....

SOCCER!!!!A.K.A Football :P LOL, no it's the other way around..

YEAHHHH...GOOO BRAZILLLLLLLLLLL!!!

May we live those moments again.

Since I was a kid, i had this obsession with WC matches...But club ones didn't really matter to me..except maybe those few common ones...Real Madrid, Arsenal, etc. Really cool to watch. was quite sad to see Iran losing...Ali Karimi and Daei weren't even noticeable..and they weren't very well organized..anyhow, insh'Allah good luck next years...The US flunked it..they should go back to their AMREICAN Football...LOL...soccer ain't no match for them..umm..yeah and Brazil is getting some real criticism...esp. Ronaldo..pooooor Ronaldo :(

No-one had suffered more than Ronaldo. Branded overweight and unfit, the top scorer at the 2002 World Cup was perhaps only one game away from being dropped.

^^So true...akhh...MY FAV. PLAYER since i was a kid..They're being so harsh to him...ufff media ufff...

Well...Today's match was AWESOMEEE!!!And that was just a mere evidence that Ronaldo is still the best striker ever. Two goals, one was by his head and the other one was shot 20 m away from the goal. Just awesome.

Argentine is a good team too...Hope to see them play against Brazil in the finals ;)

Some of Shakespear's verses

2006-06-22T18:34:00.000-05:00

We studied "Macbeth" this year...and I want to share a few of the verses that I really liked in that play:

Fair is foul, and foul is fair,
Hover through the fog and filthy air...
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Come what come may,
Time and the hour runs through the roughest day.
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There ’s no art
To find the mind’s construction in the face.
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^^^true but sounds ironic in the play..
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Letting “I dare not” wait upon “I would,”
Like the poor cat i’ the adage.
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There ’s daggers in men’s smiles.
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Nothing in his life became him like the leaving it; he died as one that had been studied in his death to throw away the dearest thing he owed, as 't were a careless trifle.
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Stars, hide your fires:
Let not light see my black and deep desires:
The eye wink at the hand; yet let that be
Which the eye fears, when it is done, to see.
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Double,double,toil and trouble; fire burn, and cauldron bubble.

^^hehe..the witches are so funny..yet scary...

2006-06-22T17:55:00.000-05:00

They were playing some kind of music too that goes with their prayer

and that's when the adults were done their service..They were organizing themselves on the stage to take some sort of a "memorable" picture for the entire audience...and we sneaked in too..lol

oh and did I mention that we've got two cute budgie birds too :wub: :wub: But unfort. the green one has died :'( Due to the lackness of the job carried out by one of the siblings around <_<

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OMG...why aren't the pictures of the birdies downloading?

yalla Insh'Allah in the next posts...

salaaaaams

Trip to the church

2006-06-22T09:28:00.000-05:00

Hehe…Salams people…
Yes indeed indeed…haven’t been here since ages…I know I know..I am forgiven heheh :blushes: I AM DONE SCHOOOL though!!..awesome!!! finally..what a year…Oh yes, let me tell you about my trip to the church 3 months ago..lol
It was a really good experience :) not too great, not too bad. Well, the one I went to was a “Korean” one but thankfully the sermon that we were going to attned was in English (as my friend has told me earlier) celebrating the holiday of Easter (The feast of Resurrection of Prophet Jesus (AS)). I learned quite a good amount of things…like there are those “pastors” who preach and lecture people…and the word “services” basically meant like some sort of a rite. or a “ritual practice” in other words..Their actions, prayers..etc So it was quite interesting :) . The thing is, I didn’t get to see the adults’ one :( and that’s where the “real” events take place…like all those preachers and priests…and their dresses and all, such as the ones they show on TV….I didn’t get to see that :’( 'cause mainly the reason is that they’re doing it in Korean, and the one that we were aimed to go to, was like for people our age who were preaching in English and thus, not one of those formal ones lol. You’re probably saying why the hell did I even go there. Well, how am I supposed to know? That was sooo nice of her inviting me to attend the service and all..She’s such a sweet cupcake :wub: love ya jennn!! So we entered this huge auditorium, after the adults were done ofcourse, and two preachers started lecturing and showing those slides (there was actually a power point pres. too) and then there was this small play who resembled the crucifiction of Prophet Jesus (AS) (which we dont believe in obviously)..It was real cute...OMG did I mention the most horrible moments I went through? SEVEN males have offered me their hands as in to shake, and I refused all of them! OMG I am not even joking,,SEVEN!! Imagine the embarrassment…kha6iyya lol..They were nice about it however..Alhamdullilah it was all good…But maybe next time, I might try an English one…where the real things go on….anyhow, good experience :)

Pictures coming up next post insh'Allah.

Guess what???

2006-04-13T22:52:00.000-05:00

I AM GOING TO THE CHURCH THIS SUNDAYYYY!!!!FIRST TIME EVER....in my entire life!!!! my friend invited me..yayyy...
Easter break is finally here toooo!!!
God..those smileys never work here...tut tut tut...

I am going to take my digi cam, hoping they would allow it there...I really wanna take pictures of the architecture from the inside..the activities taking place..etc etc..

insh'Allah insh'Allah...
nas2alukum al duaa

Lately....

2006-04-09T13:20:00.000-05:00

I am bored..and I am supposed to be studying my chemistry, math, and english..But i can't help it..you just take a glance at the gigantic amount of work I have to do, next minute you find yourself out of breath and BOM..fainted :P Anyway, will get back to them soon..So lately..I am preparing for another presentation (yes lol, you see me talking about pres.'s a lot, 'cause I hate them with a passion!) and that one is about presenting a "symbol" or rather a living thing that is valuable and significant to your homecountry's culture or an entire region/state etc. hmmm..so I was thinking ...and umm..I ended up with the "Palm Tree" *blinks* LOL...well I couldn't think of anything else, since she provided us with examples like the "eye", the "moon" , "love" hmm love is NOT a living thing!!!HMPH!!..Anyways, so I certainly do think that the palm tree is a vital factor in the middle east’s economy and such..if not all, well Iraq definitely is. You can live just by it alone…I can go on forever…ohhhhh and I can even relate it to Mary’s (AS) story giving birth to Prophet Jesus (AS) under the PALM tree!! It better be in the Bible though :/ never trust those revisers..gotta check it.

anyway....So I am reading KITE RUNNER TOO!!!an awesome book! I finally got it last week after waiting for appx two months or so just to get the order in...*roll eyes* ... ..still in the first chapters though, but you gotta love all the reviews...esp. from the ones i heard on SC :P and it's about shia afghans i believe...Very thrilling!!

what else...ohhhh..and a few hours ago I just talked to my cousin in UK who got married just yesterday :D well...not entirely, but the "katb ktab/3aqed" thing is done..lol dunno its name in english, but it's the thing that's done before the wedding as in they have reserved each other :P...May God bless her...

ok..me blabbered enough..off the internet...
so addictive...God... :D wassalam!

MUBARAK to ALL!!! Eid Al Zahra!

2006-04-08T11:07:00.000-05:00

Congratulations to the Lady of the worlds and the rold model of all women, Al Zhara Al Batool (AS), and to Imam Al Hujja Saheba Al Zaman (AJF) and to all the lovers of AhlulBayt (AS) on this most auspicious joyous occasion celebrating the killing of the criminals of the blessed Progeny (AS) on Karbala and the death of the 2nd filthy khalifa who burned the house of Fatima (AS) and this day also marks the beginning of the Imamate of Imam Mahdi (AJF)...May Allah hasten his re-appearance.

Ifra7 Yal Mowali

Far7at Al Zahra

Mubarak once again!

ahhhhh

2006-04-03T00:32:00.000-05:00

Now I'm sitting here and it's past 1:30 a.m ...all alone...all hurt and distressed...School is tomorrow and I haven't even gone to sleep yet. I am so speechless...I am so tired of myself...why do I continuously have the tendency of hurting people's feelings? Why do I not learn from my mistakes? why do I always choose the wrong words at the wrong time? Did I not learn how to choose wiser and more pleasant words? ahhhhh....I keep on doing this...I stab hearts, and shatter words without even giving it a second to think about it...I mean even if I were joking or playing around, and by Allah, I never mean it, but they'd always take it personally *sighsssss* I dunno what to do...this hasn't happened for the first time, nor the second, nor the third...but several times! It's so sad...It tears my heart aparts whenever hearing their angelic voice whipsering cries and seeing tears rolling down their cheeks...
It leaves me in such an unbelievable misery ...I am so tired of myself wallah...so tired and I don't know what to do....
Perhaps I need to work more on building my personality...my vocabs, and better understanding of others' feelings...I don't seem to be successful really, but I'll just have to keep trying...This life isn't just fair sometimes...

I am off to sleep....keep me in your duaas!

Inna Lillah wa Inna Ilayhee Raje'oon

2006-03-29T08:05:00.000-06:00

La 7awla wa la Quwatta Illa Billah...

May Allah (SWT) have a place for him in Paradise...Truly tragic.

NEVER leave things to the last minute!

2006-03-25T17:17:00.000-06:00

LOL...This past week was just funny outright...It was the week right after the March break. So we were supposed to prepare a "play" to present to the class after the holidays, for an English presentation, in a group that is, and focusing mainly on the concept of Creation. The pres. was due on the second day we come back to school (i.e Tuesday).We had each other's emails/phone numbers..etc etc to make sure that we do contact each other effectively and try to come up with plans and ideas for our pres. and so that we can get it over with. So the first half of the week passes...3/4 of the week passes and still nothing and I am still somewhat vexed. Friday, I decided to call my friend finally and see what we can come up with. We talked and talked and talked but ended up scratching our heads. However, we settled on the next day to be On Line on msn, including the other two members and so we'd actually do look like we've done something on the holidays.
Saturday comes and I am awfully busy, cleaning, guests..etc and it was the evening of the commemoration of Arbaeen as well (It was on Monday, but we do it earlier due to school, work etc). So we went to the Hussayniya and stayed there up to midnight. Ya mama! one day and we're off to school and we haven't done a single thing! So annoying when you think about that! ugh..anyways, so Sunday passes as well, and I was still trying to maintain my tranquillity trying not to sound so irritated but was preparing for my quarrel on Monday with the rest of the group. (partly my fault too..hehe). I went on msn but there were merely one or two people on. Sunday night: I happen to stay a little late..it was about past midnight that night, and I unintentionally just signed on msn, and BINGO! ALL OF US WERE ONLINE...OMG, and they were all like "YES FINALLY...LET'S DISCUSS WHAT WE'RE GOING TO DO TOMORROW!!" me * staring unbelievably* wow...what a liable responsible group. Sunday night! ROFL. So we discussed a few things, and I was picked to be "Eve" and the "angel" awww...lol..
We were going to only focus on the "creation of man" part (well our group was) and so we chose to do a play..yayyy...anyway, Monday morning, picking our names from the hat; turned out that our pres. is gonna be on Wed. not Tues. Alhamdulliah, so we still got time. The following was planned: come at lunch to practice; tuesday during lunch too, and afterschool; and wednesday morning. MY...what a havoc...and applauds go to my group members for coming half an hour late for each and every rehearsal..*roll eyes* . though, it was a total CRACK in each and every scene...LOL anyways, so the day finally arrives; and I got hold of my lil sis's butterfly-costume wings *hehehe* to resemble the angel ...lol.. and we actually did it! IT was perfect and very well thought-out as stated by our teacher! (Except that the apple fell from the person's hands who was supposed to be a "tree"and we actually had to go and get it...LOL..quite embarrassing)..we BETTER get A+ at it!!!! don't know the mark yet :(...
ANYWAYSSS...my point is...WORKING WITH GROUPS SUCK!!!!and leaving things till the last minute sucks tooooo!!! Be efficient and take responsibility is the key to success and better achievements (despite the fact that we had things done in the last minute, we somehow overcame our obstacles :P) for the future. :)

That was an essay....I wish I could've all those ideas rushing in my mind when I actually do write a real essay :/ alright bloggy, time to go!

Salams!

Al Jazeera Insulting Poem

2006-03-25T00:14:00.000-06:00

LOOL. Here's yet another insulting comentary to the most disgraceful inexcusably-biased channel (Al Jazeera) and its trash talk. For all those who understand/speak arabic, check it out: LOOL

Click here

They deserve even more, but the guy just bombed it. Thumbs up sir!

Excellent lectures...

2006-03-24T21:15:00.000-06:00

Seyyid Mahdi Al Moderresi

This year's (2006) Muharram lectures were just OUTSTANDING as usual Mash'Allah.

You can find them here: http://www.aimislam.com/ashura/index.html

Miscellaneous Lectures

A new perspective on women in Islam To watch, click here

Fatima Al Zahra: The great role

The life of a Muslim in the West

^-^ May God bless them eternally.

Random!

2006-03-17T21:03:00.000-06:00

Uff...Finally this thing worked. The server interfered its "re-filing and construction" thing just as I have just started posting in my blog. *roll eyes* Anyway..
So I am debating with this sunni friend of mine (sending emails to each other-lol we don't even have time to actually debate it in school) and to be honest, it's a total waste of time. You have provided facts, narrations from "their" books, evidence from the Quran, and I swear it's crystal clear, but they still revolve and twist around with the words without coming up with a useful thing. Giving me lengthy copy/paste stuff about "their" biography and how "knowledgable" they were is not gonna get them anywhere. Why are they so ignorant? Why do they try not to accept the truth? Although we've only just touched the "Imam's intercession" part and Aisha's (and 7afsah) status among the other wives topic(OMG, don't get me started, because I think I've worked up a sweat on this...and if she carries on with all this praising without grasping what I have provided and barked at, I'll have a heart failure by then) We'll insh'Allah continue covering the most important issues, and most surely, the main topic, the Imamat (Caliphate) of the Commander of the Faithful Ameerul Mo'mineen Ali(Alayhe Assalam) . Please do keep in your prayers..Insh'Allah I'll keep you updated. BTW, I am not that professional or that sort of a nerdy who knows everything, lol, you see me writing in capitals and bolding at this and that...the girl is gonna freak out. LOL..It's also due to....
The most outstanding superb brilliant and well-know speaker, Seyyid Ammar Al Nakshawani's lectures *woohoo*. It helped A LOT, and when I say alot, yes it means a lot. Let me touch a few of the many characterisitics about this great speaker. He's Mash'Allah very dynamic and keeps your attention throughout the whole lecture; his ideas are like a chain of thoughts running that never stops to see what the next station is (his next thought in other words), very analytical and straight to the point. The ahadith and the stories he brings along are tremendously inspiring and very educational Mash'Allah. I am gonna cry now lol. You should all listen to his lectures. Not to forget Seyyid Mahdi Al Moderresi as well...one of the excllent speakers....Very knowledgable and his lectures are simply amazing. I so benefited a lot from them.I'll post up some of their most inspiring lectures in a new post insh'Allah. LOL I was actually going to put all this as a separate post, but you know how it is, one thing pulls the other, and it's all connected lol.:/

Salams!

Cont...to my previous post

2006-03-16T15:16:00.000-06:00

*sniffs*

May Allah (SWT) grant us Ziyarat Saheb Al Wala' Al Abbas (AS) and Seyyid Al Shuhada' Al Hussain (AS) and to all the shrines of the Blessed Progeny (AS).

Don't you just feel like leaping onto the pictures?

2006-03-16T15:04:00.000-06:00

Those pictures are just too magnificent to keep to myself. Breathtaking wallah. Images taken from different angles of Abal Fathl Al Abbas's (AS) tomb in Karbala.

To be Continued....

My BLOG!

2006-03-13T21:58:00.000-06:00

In the Name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

Assalamu alaikum!!

And Lo and Behold...my precious blog is finally here!! (to be honest, I've made one previously, quite a while now, and it had only one post..tsk..tsk..Now that I've forgotten the URL + nick, and the pass. I decided with the encouragement of a very dear friend of mine to creating a new one!

Anyways, I had spent almost all my day thinking about the name of my blog...I didn't know how to phrase it, "Striving for Knowledge" seems a little boring, well at least to me. "Striving for Perfection" was another alternative, but it's a little exaggerated, since we can not exactly reach the level of perfectionism, however, we can atleast try our best to keep our Glorious Allah pleased and satisfied with our actions. I dunno, I think I am happy with the verse I chose, nevertheless, your opinion is needed tooo!! Do tell me if I need to change it! :)

Now I need some time to explore and investigate how this blog works. I hate the banner too. I'll leave you with only a few out of the manyyy enlightening words of wisdom of Imam Ali (AS)...those are short but meaningful!

* Books are the gardens of the learned.

* A wise man first thinks and then speaks and a fool speaks first and then
thinks.

*The sin which makes you sad and repentant is more liked by Allah than the
good deed which turns you arrogant.

*Lack of friends means, stranger in one's own country.

*Knowledge and wisdom are really the privilege of a faithful Muslim. If you
have lost them, get them back even though you may have to get them from the
apostates.

until then, take care!
Wassalam